my job

as of jan of 2008 I am officially a financial advisor for Inbursa financial group. Hopefully it will help pay the bills and a bit more so I can do more 24-7 stuff. The cool thing about this job is that I don't have to do any hours and the bad thing about it is that I don't get health insurance or base pay!! stupid sales commission ... but unless I find a job that allows me to travel whenever I need to with a base salary and all the perks, I'm stuck with this one for the year.

Last thursday I lost my sleep over my masters' tuition fees. I've enrolled last month, got a really good grade on the admissions test and got a decent scholarship which I thought would help alleviate some of the final cost of my courses.

However, as usual, things have not gone according to plan and thus the lack of sleep. The final cost was twice as much as I expected it to be and my salary is way lower than I anticipated. Turns out, u don't get to make 500USD/hour right off the bat. Preposterous, I know.

In the end I find myself asking random questions as I see some of the pillars around me crumbling down. I truly have nothing. It seems that everyone in my close circle is having a hard time and I'm frustrated that I can't do much about it and angry/upset that I might have caused it.

It seems that everyday I wake up and try to make thing better for those around me but it hasn't been working out too good lately. Maybe it's one of those seasons... however they seem to come way too often.